I'm making this journal in the middle of a tumultuous time.
A few weeks ago my wife gave birth to a beautiful baby girl, it seemed that things would improve from then on. but since last week My wife started to get worse, she started eating less, doing less things to the point of telling me that she felt weak. To me it seemed normal: we don't sleep more than two hours a night because of our baby, it's normal, you could say. her family took her (with the new born) for a few days to get some sleep and hope things get better, but they just got worse.
a couple of days ago we went to the hospital, she felt very bad so i took her to the doctor to check on her, everything was fine, but she still was feeling weak, so next morning (monday) she got in the hospital for one day for observations and blood tests. next morning was everything okay, nothing out of the normal thing. an acute case of dehydration, with vomiting, chronic fatigue and practically being in bed all day. Doctors said she has postpartum depression, The pregnancy was not a bed of roses, our economic situation was not helping much either, but we were able to get through it as best as possible. But it seems that her body It's taking its toll on her.
Her family is scared, the uncertainty is overwhelming, the doctors threaten her with psychiatric medications, I am afraid that she will reach that point, but I have faith and I pray that she will get better. But it has only been a few days, the improvements are minimal, I have not cried in years but this situation is complicated, I keep my composure, for her, for my family, I hope for the best but I fear the worst.
I was barely able to get a few commissions from a couple of people who have a heart of gold and who certainly helped a lot these days. But my time for art is limited, it is difficult for me to make time to work as I would like, small half-hour sessions as much as I can achieve for my work.
To all those to whom I owe a commission, I hope you read this, I am sorry for making you wait so long, I would like to be able to finish my obligations, but the situation is beyond me, I can only ask for patience and understanding. I do not want this but it is what I have to face. I hope my strength does not fail me.